quarter life crisis

Driving along the 403 watching the endless industrial establishements whiz by I began asking myself some questions. How is it that a company making only mini ball valves exists? Someone started this company at some point in their life. What were they thinking? Were they capital-minded, thinking "mini ball valves will be a great seller!" or were they passion driven, thinking "There is nothing I love better than producing mini ball valves!". Now, I can only speculate but I don't believe it was the latter.

There are millions of people doing jobs they hate, or worse, feeling indifferent about the task they spend most of their life completing. At 21, I have quickly become one of those people. In a culture so driven by the need to spend and consume, it's no wonder I've fallen into the trap. My only consolation is that I am still a part time student. I have the illusion of hope that I am still learning and growing and therefore the job I do now may not be considered a career. The problem with this, of course, is that I can't stay in school forever. One day, and soon, I will have to accept defeat, or God forbid, go out on a limb and try something new.

This is my (pre) quarter life crisis. I couldn't agree more with Stephen Silver of blogcritics.org that it is caused by my own fear and laziness. If I would allow myself to dig into my thoughts and realize how I truly feel about my current situation and its propbable consequences, the answer would be quite clear: stop being such a sissy and go try something new! I'm not sure if I'll ever find a specific passion in life but I should at least give it a try. After all, a wise old man once told me that "nothing worth having is free".